the way i live.

and so it has.

2012-01-07T11:15:00.001+08:00

the time is here, 3 more weeks to exams. 8 more weeks till the last day of school.

and so it has reminded me how much i need to start preparing for it NOW.

it feels so surreal and it has definitely stir quite a bit of anxious-ness of what's gonna happen next when i step into the next season of life.

and so it has.

but, it has also reminded me of what God has promised.

Matthew 6:25-34

English Standard Version (ESV)

Do Not Be Anxious

²⁵ ⁾“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? ²⁷ And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? ²⁸ And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, ²⁹ yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. ³⁰ But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹ Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. ³³ But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. ³⁴ “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Philippians 4:6

New International Version (NIV)

⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

rawrrrrrr

2011-07-30T20:12:00.003+08:00

Been super duper stretched for the past few weeks!

But so far,

it's been awesome.

Though sometimes it's really really tiring,

I know that at the end of it,

it will be super fulfilling.

Image a life with no purpose,

that's just living physically.

On a side note,

I'm quite excited for my HK attachment in sept/oct.

Can't wait to chill in the super awesome chilly weather,

i can so imagine myself having my hot starbucks drink/ apple juice

plus my chicckkeeenn pie at the outdoor seating of The Peak.

WOO. even though i've been there twice, i'm still soooo excited.

i love the weather. AH! HAHAH.

super cranky now.

my clinical exam starts next week!

looking forward to visit the familiar SAI WAN HO neighbourhood.

HONGKONG,

super crowded and busy - don't like.

awesome autumn weather - i like.

To all of those who are cranky and preparing for the exams,

''YOU CAN DO IT! HANG IN THERREEE!!'' :D

like a fire burning,

2011-07-22T17:21:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for all my clinical and written exams to be over!

6 more weeks.

Bee-ssyy Bee

2011-06-01T11:40:00.000+08:00

School have been hectic. Plus all other things.

I've been a busy beeee. Sometimes I wonder how much commitments can I take while still being productive in every single thing I do. Hard to say. But I'm thankful for where I am today.

I'm going to start work soon and my question to myself each time i think about it, was, "What did i got myself into?" But then again, after hearing what R said at a meeting last sunday, i realise i was wronggggg. It is when we are busy, then we know how to manage our time better and serve excellent-ly. I think that's pretty true. Only when we are really tight on our time, we'll make the best-est efforts out of everything we do. And i'm praying hard that i can and will do it. One verse i really need to mediate on,

Philippians 4:13 (NKJV)

¹³ I can do all things through Christwho strengthens me.

to all others who are overwhelmed by the things in your life, YOU CAN DO IT TOO! :D

time that have passed.

2011-03-25T17:32:00.001+08:00

it's been almost a year since i started university.
it was an overwhelming one year in university. it was one that passed, reeeeaaalllllyyyy, slowly.

final year TWO is coming. so much challenges ahead. God, please see me through all of these!

Anyway, it's the holidays now. and i wanna travel badly :/ to the place where i can chill, relax and recharge for the final-chionging-year.

3 more weeks till school reopens.

how now brown cow? :(

BOO!

2011-02-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

BOO! I've been inactive on this blog.

Exams are nearing!

See you againnnn after exammmss are done. D-O-N-E, DONE.

2011-01-07T19:13:00.002+08:00

http://sixdee2.tumblr.com/ for the moment.

GOGOGOGO ESTHER

2010-11-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

Philippians 4:13 (NKJV)

¹³ I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

?

2010-11-23T20:33:00.000+08:00

busy busy

2010-11-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

school's been quite busy. the end years are always busy busy, especially with all preparation of Christmas.

all i can say, i wanna go on a holiday.

one and a half month later.

2010-09-22T15:17:00.000+08:00

it's been one and a half month since we first moved into Playfair. I'm starting to get used to it, the premises at least. Food wise, not yet! much lesser options compared to Prinsep.

Anyway, it's also been one and a half month since i last updated. Life's been pretty much the same, well... almost the same. I hope it'll get better and better and better though! The exams are over and semester vacation is here. That's all i can say.

ciaos.

farewell, Prinsep; hello, Playfair.

2010-08-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

It was the last weekend service at Prinsep this weekend and it'll be the first service at Playfair next weekend.

It felt like only a few months ago when I first entered into FGA at Prinsep, but it's been 5 years! 5 long years! 5 good years! There were many unforgettable memories at Prinsep. A little sad to leave this place, but a new one is waiting for us to occupy. It'll a brand new chapter for FGA@Playfair. It'll be a good one.

Thank You Lord for providing this place for us. I'm very sure many awesome miracles and memories will be in this new chapter for FGA. AMEN!

build me, shape me.

2010-07-15T20:57:00.001+08:00

It's been a year plus, and I'm still struggling from it. Yea, nobody said it was gonna be easy. I wanted to give up so many times, but I didn't. I don't want to be defeated by it. This has been the hardest and toughest challenge/trial/test ever from You Lord. I know I'm an overcomer. I know i can do this.

Because the big I Am is with me.

Lord, You are with me.

Always remember, He will never give me something that i cannot bear. Provide me with extra strength for this, God. Teach me, guide me, shape me. Amen.

1 Corinthians 10:13 (NIV)

¹³No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

when the world overwhelmed, God saves.

2010-07-07T15:50:00.001+08:00

I've been feeling rather drained recently.

I guess it's cos i haven't been managing my time and priorities well.

Back to square one;

Lord, please grant me your wisdom to manage my priorities.

Amen.

Ever since March, I've been having this tingling urge to travel.

Money, Time, Restrictions.

I'm still here.

The stress is here too, again.

From what? I'm sure you'll know if you know me.

Don't worry, I'm fine.

Just tired.

All i can say,

I'm looking forward to the Tioman Dive Trip in August.

The oh-so-clear-waters of Tioman island,

wait for me.

I'll be there in less than 2 months.

the holidays are here..., NOT!

2010-06-15T12:17:00.003+08:00

My 2 weeks holiday just started. BUT BUT BUT BUT, it doesn't feel like it's a break for me. BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE, there are 4 modules' tests to study for, some lab reports to complete and a presentation to prepare. All of these are going to conquer my 2 weeks break, BUT BUT BUT BUT, i shall not let it dominate my holidays. I will make time for other things as well to really take a break (i hope)!

I'm feeling cranky already. Nevermind.

See you later alligator!

When time speeds past,

2010-05-13T12:57:00.001+08:00

My 4th week in school is already coming to an end! How fast is that huh?

Basically, my life has been circulating around school, church, meetings and meet-ups (: Well, actually, mainly school la.

Even though i feel stress about school now but so far, it's been really fun. That's especially so for Instrumentation Practicals! :) We've been trying out different instruments and techniques that only Ophthalmologist can do here in Singapore, (in case, you don't know) that's because Optometrist here still can't practice drugs, so there are alot of things we are unable to do in the industry.

The funny thing is that we've been enjoying doing it but our eyes, especially the corneas' been sacrificed. Every thursday, 1/3 of us will have our corneas badly scratched by the end of the practical. Now, you know, Optometrists have been sacrificing their eyes for practicals before looking into yours. So noble right, haha. But afterall, it's for the benefit of everyone :) It's worth it.

Apart from school, I managed to meet up with 2 girls (and their bfs). It was nice catching up over food and ice-cream! :) Actually, it was like a triple date, 3 guys and 3 girls at each side of the table. It was unintended and random at first but turned out quite nice.

MORE MEETINGS GIRLS!! :DD I haven't met the rest for a while too.

2nd

2010-04-28T15:30:00.003+08:00

It's the second week of my semester already and the stress is here already. Yes, i know. fast right. My seconday school friends might just say it's me but it's not! everyone in class is quite worry for what's gonna happen this semester. It's gonna be quite competitive. There are only 37 in my class/course and almost all the textbooks been loaned. Er... I really don't know what to say. But only God can help me through this man.

Anyway, the past weekend was a tiring one. However, there was something different about it. Something really different. I think it was the moving of the Holy Spirit in the weekend that filled me despite feeling so tired physically. Yeah. It was awesome.

It was Surge Huddle yesterday. I'm glad that i was there. God revealed a lot to me and answered my prayer. I think it's time that i learn how to initiate things and break out of my comfort zone.

Before all of that, let me just get my priorities right again!

Where is it?

2010-04-19T12:31:00.001+08:00

Nice. I can't find my Advance Theory book for driving. I was supposed to lend it to N but i still can't find! And I don't remember if i lent it to someone. HAHAHA.

Did i happen to lend it to you?

School's starting

2010-04-17T00:31:00.002+08:00

School's starting......, again.

Yup. Monday marks the first day of my uni. My 6 weeks of holiday is over. Hmm.. to be
honest. I haven't recovered for the hectic final year in poly. But I'm really happy that I'm
able to get into uni and study here in Singapore as well. I cannot complain, because many of
my friends have already starting working full time and that could be even more tiring than
school.

Oh wells, hopefully the 2 years in uni will be a fruitful and good one! :D

Thank You Lord for answering my prayer and giving me my desired timetable!
I'm very very very very blessed with whatever that I have now, Lord. Thank You.

The Word "University"

2010-04-08T18:59:00.003+08:00

This feels really weird. Not like weird weird, but more of "surreal weird", weird. The university enrollment pack has been sent to my address already. I have to fill in the forms and everything all over again, just like how I applied for polytechnic 3 years ago. I'm transitioning into another phase in my life. I know it's gonna be tough. But I really want to do this.

It's kinda scary at first, knowing you have to face that intense stress to do well again, for 2 years. Knowing your next phase of life after this would be the "Working" phase. Sometimes, we just don't want to grow up huh. Knowing everything is still uncertain after university. But above all, I also know that God will be with me through it all, because He has His mighty plans for me, already planned till the day I go home - to Him.

I still remember how i wanted to study all the way till I become a doctor ( I mean to get a doctorate degree in Optometry). But honestly, now I don't know what I want for myself. I don't know if I would like to become a doctor or I want to do something else. This passion to become a doctor, let's just say- has faded away. Or sometimes I don't have the faith to believe that I can be one, of course, I know that I can be one if God wants that to happen. I think I need to discover more of myself again, as in, find out more about myself, find my passion and find out what I really like. Yes, that will be what I will be doing and praying for this year.

I would also like to travel while I'm a student! Gonna make travel plans if I can, or if time permits me to. Hopefully, university will not take up all of my time on top of my other commitments, just like how Year 3 in poly did!

Uhhh.. Apart from that, I haven't been exercising. The last time I played Netball or ran was months ago. Now, I feel super unhealthy. Haha. And I haven't been practicing driving! I haven't drive for months! Haha. This is funny. Because every time I am given a chance to drive, I reject it. Sorry, jie. Haha.

Tong's away too. He's been there for about 1 week already. 1 more week and he will be back! Yes, of course I miss him la. But he'll be back soon! :) Please enjoy yourself as much as you can ya, tong! :D I'm doing okay :D

till the next time people!

NOOOOOO WAAAAYYYYYYY!

2010-04-07T14:59:00.003+08:00

NOOOOOO WAAAAYYYYYYY mansss!!!

The holiday is ending.

One more week.

I'd better get all prepared for school.

I'd better meet up with those whom i want to meet up with.

I'd better get my life back organised.

I'd better enjoy this last shiok holiday.

something, EGG-CITING!

2010-03-31T20:36:00.008+08:00

As this is my very precious holiday and school break,

i was really craving to do something exciting and different,

going on a holiday,

diving,

etc..

But i couldn't cos of money and time.

so i decided to explore the new sewing machine at home.

So...

i present to you...

ipod SLEEVES!

i wanted to get an ipod cover for my classic in bangkok,

but i didn't manage to find something i like,

so why not create one?

with the privilege of picking my own favourite fabric and design!

I don't mind making more and selling them too! :D

Graduation Day on 18 May 2010

2010-03-24T15:21:00.006+08:00

ying and yol will be leaving singapore very soon for Bangkok!

yes, i was quite tempted to fly there with them and i almost did!

it's been 943748326 years since i wanted to travel with them,

but i decided not to because the air tickets were expensive,

and i have a lot of commitments here during this 2 weeks

plus tong is leaving next week for perth for 2 weeks.

So i've decided,

to stay :D

Though i would really love to be there with the girls! :(

i'm like torn apart between these 2 choices.

but after some prayers,

think it's still wiser for me to stay here.

NEXT TIME K, GIRLS! MUST OKAY?!

:))

on a side note,

i'm OFFICIALLY a diploma graduate!!

i've gotten my results and i'm very happy with it.

it was really worth it.

Thank God for His endless grace and favour on me.

It wouldn't have been this good without Him!

Praise God!

It's done :D

2010-03-17T17:21:00.004+08:00

Awesome Bangkok.

such simple lives they have it there.

I feel like going back there again, already.

AWAY

2010-03-10T15:10:00.001+08:00

SEE YOU IN 5 DAYS!

HELLO BKK!

Episodes of my life at SP

2010-02-26T15:27:00.002+08:00

click picture for a larger view

the "unofficial" last day

2010-02-26T11:04:00.005+08:00

Honestly, I don't know how to start this post. Everything seems so surreal, but actually it's REAL!! We ended off our "unofficial" last day of school (excluding the cibavision course that we have to attend on 2nd march!) on the 24th of February with a Clinical Test, Career Talk and a PTN Lunch alongside with a Captain's Ball Friendly.

It was a nice pleasant last day of school. It started with the test, 9am at MLT1 (where, majority of the people didn't study for as they were too happy that FYP has ended). Then the release of Compentency Test results. Followed by a Career talk by 2 companies and a professor, that really gave us insights on what will happen when we step out into the working life.

THEN, it was a lunch buffet with a spread of food on the table!!! The best part wasn't the food actually. It was actually eating in SPOC with slippers and shorts on plus walking in and out with the FRONT door. Nice! For those who do not know, for 3 years, optometry students were not allowed to have uncovered footwear and shorts in labs and at the clinic. We also have to always access the clinic with the back door. YES.. Now you know why i was thrilled.

FOLLOWING THAT, we had Captain Ball Friendlies with all the different classes. and above all of that, there was a lot of photo taking!

more updates later..

Imagine that! - updated on 25/02/10

2010-02-25T14:12:00.001+08:00

When i said it was about ~~7 more weeks~~,

it's... ABOUT 1 MORE WEEK NOW!

The past weeks have been crazy. Really crazy. But we're glad the 'high tide' that tried to drown us is over. Looking at where we are now, we're really happy. Yes, we are. Just a little left, we'll get to the end of this marathon. We will, sprint to the end.

1) ~~Motivation Presentation~~

2) ~~Clinical Case Studies Presentation~~

3) ~~FYP Report Submission~~

4) ~~Dispensing Practical Test~~

5) ~~Communications for Work Test~~

6) ~~Business Project Report~~

7) ~~Competency Test~~

8) ~~Clinic Duties~~

9) ~~FYP Presentation~~

10) ~~Clinical Test 2/Career's Day/PTN~~

11) Ciba Vision 1-day Business Course

about 7 more weeks!

2010-01-06T21:53:00.004+08:00

Nice.

First week of school and the stress is increasing already!

Nonetheless, i'm thankful that we're almost there. about 7 more weeks till the end of this race. Notice that i said "this", not "the" race. Cos it's not the end! :D

Looking at my diary, my first week of school is extremely packed.

Madness.

But i can do it!

God will bring me through!!!! Yes!

Girls, we can do this!

We will do very awesome-ly for our very crazy FYP ok?!

Thank God He brought me through the not-too-good-last-few-weeks!

And thanks sweetheart for everything! :D We can do thisssss!!!!! :) <3

The Stress & the Apart-s

2009-12-18T23:20:00.016+08:00

FYP equals

- Tonnes of things to do

- Tough

- To be completed soon

- To end in 3 months

- To persevere!

* * *

Apart from the stress-esssssss,

these are the latest updates.

the girls.

it's been awhile!

meeting up with more people this holiday.

though it's a shorter holiday,

it's definitely better than the previous one!

the new gadget.

Not a bad phone, which means,

it's not bad lah.

the new hair colour.

i guess it would be the first and the last time.

i still prefer black hair best.

the boy & new hair-do.

Adorable!

2009-12-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErMWX--UJZ4

The passionate face says it all :D heh.

Almost there

2009-12-08T21:07:00.001+08:00

We're almost there.

The really tight schedule is going to be over soon. I'm left with 6 more journals for my last paper on friday. And then will have to chiong FYP already.

I had my very first grading from S last saturday afternoon and i did quite badly. But thank God, for my second slot, somehow, the clinicians swop rooms because C wanted to follow up with my second patient. I was graded quite badly by S with 3 fails but thank God C graded me with a "good" pass and above.

Yesterday was the start of my MSTs (Mid-Semester Tests). Today's the second day and friday will be the last. Yup. I'm quite in a slacking mode now.

Anyway, i just got back from Changi Airport. Sent my sister off along with Ju, Nic and Alex. Nice. Japan. Really nice. I really want to take a break too! but december tours are really expensive, so mum decided not to go hongkong/taiwan where initially we planned to. However, really happy that my sis get to go for a holiday too! I call it her "Long-lost-break" where finally she find it and get to do it, after so many months of unpaid OT.

Hohoho. Meeting the rest this saturday for dinner :) Nice!

till the next time...!

TIGHT

2009-11-30T22:45:00.003+08:00

School's TIGHT! This is a tight week manzxsxzxszxz!

1) CSW TEST
2) BUSINESS PLANNING PRESENTATION
3) RETAIL OPERATIONS PRESENTATION
4) 3 CLINICS!
5) REVISION FOR MID-SEMESTER TEST WEEK, NEXT WEEK!
6) FINISH READING 19 JOURNALS!

but i know, by God's grace and strength, i can do this! woohoo!

On a lighter note, i bump into swee in the train today (:
NICE :D Miss the girls, hope to meet them soon during the dec holidays! :DDD

Re-prioritize

2009-11-22T13:51:00.004+08:00

Thank you God. It's time to RE-prioritize.

It's the last semester in poly. Honestly, i can't wait to get that diploma! after studying so hard for it. heh. But also, i don't feel like leaving poly! Actually, i don't feel like stopping studying. Heh. I feel like studying until i cannot make it then stop. That is why i'm in the midst of preparing my university-application. We'll see how it goes! Still don't know what the plan will be if i don't get into the uni.

So many things to do in this last semester and other stuff, especially when it's coming to the end of the year! It's been a quick 2009, so busy and all till everything seems messed up and i'm entangled in everything. So... it's time for me to reflect and re-prioritize my time. I don't know how i'm going to do this, but i will do it!

Apart from the busy schedules, i finally got to catch 2 movies this week after so long! I really enjoyed myself :) Thanks for your time with me, dearie!

ALRIGHT!

Off to the-really-tedious-fyp-data-analysis-but-worth-all-the-effort-for-the-last-year!

After 3

2009-11-08T11:47:00.004+08:00

3 weeks of school had just passed like that. How fast is that?!?!?! There are so much of work to do! And i really need good time/priorities management skills, because right now, i don't have time for myself. Sorry dearie :( haven't got time to hang out with you especially during your free-period now before your work starts. :(

BUT BUT BUT BUT, i have to stop doing the :(((( face because i know God has put me through this for a reason :D though it's really tough, like really tough, i want to do this well. And i kinda increase my studying priority now over other things, maybe because this is the last semester. And the last semester with all the important modules and others in it.

Been feeling quite stagnant in my growth as well. Though given a chance to lead the girls, i feel there's little growth, lost and draining out. Maybe cos' my life isn't working out the right way. hmm. think should pray and seek Him more la.

Also, i haven't been meeting up with the usuals and i miss them. Everytime they meet i'm not there. Hmm. when everything settles down, think i will ask the girls out!

So many things, so little time.

God, please magnify my time to complete all these things.

Please grant me Your wisdom in everything i do. Amen!

Let's go people. Keep on keeping on!

2009-10-26T19:33:00.005+08:00

I can't breathe, properly.

There are so many school stuff to complete,

on top of the other commitments i have.

Or,

maybe it's because i haven't had my dinner yet.

.
.
.

God, strengthen me please!

my 1st week of the last semester!

2009-10-25T14:54:00.005+08:00

My first week of the last semester was a sneak preview of how 'over-whelming' it would be!
Yea, i kinda know how busy it would be like! as what the other course-mates described it when they were going through that in the previous semester. More assignments, projects, projects and projects! equals more stress. well, at least i know that God will be with me through all these! and tong boy too :) oh wells, really hope i will do well in this 'last leap' for the precious diploma. heh.

And i've been sleeping better! maybe cos' my school-terms are busier than my school-holidays. heh.

to kai ting: i hope you're sleeping better too! :)

insomnia

2009-10-15T15:30:00.003+08:00

Haven't been having enough rest,

let alone sleep, for the pass 3 days.

It's really torturing.

like seriously.

Updates

2009-10-11T16:17:00.008+08:00

It's been almost a month ever since i updated. So here are the updates!

I would say this semester holiday i have in Singapore Polytechnic is the most boring one! How boring? Staying at home almost every afternoon and only going to my sister's workplace to help her almost every night. Additionally, doing FYP with the girls! heh. I didn't really catch up with friends too, the only catching up was once with the girls for dinner at bugis and dessert at Chew's.

Morever, everytime i help my sister to complete one test-paper or curriculum, i never fail to feel this sense of accomplishment!

But! the exciting thing/highlight of the holiday was that the bangkok trip with the girls is confirmed! Girls, tongboy and the 2 guys i mean!Hmm. didn't expect the group to be this big but i'm really praying hard that God will put us all together and allow all the friendships to grow from a seed till it sprouts through the trip. heh. Now, other than booking our airtickets, the second thing for us to do is to plan the itinerary and deciding what we want to do. I thank God for Daddy's generousity to open up his apartment for all 9 of us! It's gonna be troubling for him but he still said yes. Thank God for his hospitable heart and offer to plan the itinerary too :) Hope he will enjoy himself when he brings us around too. heh.

My only fret is with a group of 9. It'll be much harder to do things together or move around together. I'm still thinking and asking God how can we plan this without having to split into 2 groups and being clique-ish. Praying hard, all of them will open up to each other and get to know each other better and also accomodating to one another.

Woo hoo! Nevertheless, i'm sure it'll be a memorable trip! at least for me. heh. Cos' it'd be my first experience travelling with friends. 5 more months!

May God bless all of us in every way through this trip! :D
Amen!

ORD LO!

2009-09-11T14:29:00.002+08:00

Congrats babe! :D

ORD lo! heh.

Four - 4

2009-09-09T14:18:00.006+08:00

It's been a fruitful few days.

Ran 5km again on monday.
But this time,
the motivation was lower,
so it was a hard 5km run i guess.
However,
thank God i managed to pull through it. :D
That's one accomplishment.

Sunday to tuesday.
Been helping my sister out at her workplace.
Managed to ease her burden by a bit.
That's two.

Packed my cabinets, cupboards and all.
That's three.

Paris Miki called.
And there's an interview tomorrow at 11am.
That's four.

5 km

2009-09-03T17:28:00.005+08:00

I feel...

a sense of accomplishment!

walk/stroll/run/jog, 5km just now for around 50minutes.

It's been a whiiiilllllllleeeeeeee since i ran or even exercise!

good job esther

*pat on the back*.

by His grace,

2009-08-30T19:23:00.005+08:00

by His awesome grace,

i passed my tp driving test! :)
all glory goes to Him.

It was a testimony that i was able to pass and i could see Him evidently in it.
if you want to know more, just ask me! :) heh.

On my first day with my license, i sent tong, sherman and ju home :) haha. it was kinda scary cos' i'm like a noob with experienced drivers. But with my dearest sister guidance i was able to overcome it. heh.

DARE TO LOVE SERIES

Week Two: Love Limits

#1 Love limits our liberty(freedom)

i. Are you willing to limit your freedom for someone else?
ii. Is self-interest more significant in your relationship with people?
iii. When self-interest is more significant than the other person's interest, it's not love that God talked about.

Week Three: Love Speaks

#1 My words speaks about me & determines the quality of all my relationships. It reflects our level of Maturity.

- We are the authors of the kind of fruits we want to bear in our lives.
- Growing old is automatic. Growing up is intentional.
- It comes down communication in the relationships.

'Operation Alpha 33'

2009-08-25T15:39:00.004+08:00

It was past 12am on monday night, which was angie's bday. We had a surprise planned for her. 18 friends on 6 cars, all travelled to her place and we were all ready for a simple birthday surprise for this lovely lady. We all met at Newton Circus and travelled there when joshua signalled us that we could go ahead with 'Operation Alpha 33'.

18 of us and 1 lift. All so confident, 18 of us packed in a lift, supposedly only able to carry 15 passengers with 1000kg. The lift didn't gave us any signs that it was over-weight or anything, and Tong said something like, it would be funny if we're trapped/stucked in the lift. But we went ahead to press '5' and for the door to close anyway. Uppppppp.... we gooooo. ...Level 2.... Level 2...

After a while,

we realised we were stuck in the lift already.

Andy said something like "Don't laugh ah, conserve oxygen to breathe." Our phones had no receptions in the stuffy lift. Tong said he had, and it was full bar! He called the emergency number provided in the lift. The operator picked up the called and tong said: "Err.. we're stuck in the lift" and etc..

Andy then pry-ed open the lift. Woohoo, air gushes into the stuffy lift. One by one we went out and the lift actually sunk down a bit due to the heavy weight. We climbed to level 5. Lit the tealights, pressed the door bell and sang Happy Birthday to Angie :) Then we sat in gie's place for a while before some of us head home and some went for supper.

'Operation Alpha 33' was a success.

Cheers!

10 things on Thursday:

2009-08-21T11:52:00.006+08:00

1. Went to school for FYP
2. Chatted with Cindy over lunch
3. wii-ed with Cindy
4. Cindy left, tong came over
5. Astons @ The Cathay
6. Read my book
7. Prayer meeting
8. Yong He soyabean with dearie
9. Home
10. KO-ed on my bed

SINGAPORE BOTANIC GARDENS

2009-08-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

it's over, but not for long.

2009-08-19T11:10:00.001+08:00

Yesterday marks the last day of school in Year 3 Sem 1.
WOOHOO. SHIOOOOOKK!!!! :D

However, it's not the end la. Still more FYP stuff to do.
Cool! Now i have to plan my time well for the holidays manszszxzszxzs.

This includes catching up with people, doing FYP and working part-time.

Had my 4th Driving Lesson today since i failed the last time.
4 more lessons next week then TP test lo!
Fast. Super Fast..

LOVE

2009-08-16T14:14:00.004+08:00

Rhordan preached about "Love is a Verb" at the "Dare to Love" series yesterday. It was a revelation and reminder for me.

Love is not a tingling feeling you get when you're with that person. It's not a warm fuzzy feeling. It's not when you're with the person, you don't feel lonely anymore, and etc..

Love is a VERB! It's ACTION.

John 13:34 (NIV)
34"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.

1 John 3:18 (NIV)
18Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.

I think what i got out of the sermon was that, a relationship is about discovering each other more. And the word "new" in John 13:34 that God said actually meant "hidden and revealed" in Greek(which was the original language that the Bible was written in).

AND AND AND

the danger of a stagnant relationship, meaning, everything seems like a routine and all, will lead to you feeling like getting out of it and changing a partner.

Therefore with the 5 Love language,

Act in love, NOT feel love.

What's up.

2009-08-04T21:42:00.005+08:00

school's been pretty much packed with assignments, test and projects. my third year in the polytechnic seems to pass so quickly. this year seems to pass so quickly. it feels like it's only yesterday that i just started my third year. it's august already!!! that's fast.

many happenings for the pass few months in school and life. good, bad, happy, sad. all's included.
hmm. honestly, i don't know what to blog about cos' there are so many things happening.

Maybe i'll just share a random thought i had today:

While i was traveling to school on the train today, i was thinking what would i want to include in a 'want' list if i have one or maybe i could create one to keep track of what i want to get. But then the Holy Spirit stopped me! by saying,

"these things are only wants and it's not something that you really need, having a list will only cause you to focus on the wrong things"

then i thought,

"Ah, that was what i needed, thanks. I will not create one"

anyway,

my pictures are up on flickr.

simply click on "myPhotostream" at my links(myloves).

NICE

2009-08-02T13:45:00.002+08:00

ah.. NICE..

i'm feeling much much much, so much better :)

thanks all! :)
thanks dear! x)

finished taking the photos for my photography assignment too!

will post it in flickr soon after i finish all my tests, projects and all :)

see you around!

idk

2009-07-25T21:58:00.005+08:00

seriously, idk.

idk what i'm doing or what am i thinking right now.
as crude as it sounds, it's all so screwed up.

but, however,

i know i can do this,
but how?

idk again.

why why why why why.
please reveal the answer to me,
and bring me out of this.

cos all i can say that it's tough.
it's tougher than anything else in my whole 18 years of life.
it pierce, it hurts and it's painful.

but i really want to do this well but i just dk how.
please tell me what You want me to do.

it's so tempting to get out of it and do what i want to do.
preserve it if You want to.
for i want to make no major decisions in this.
because i know when i'm in this state,
i don't make very wise decisions.

but how long more must it be this way.

idk.
it might take even longer than i expected.
it had already took longer than what i expected.

blah blah blah.

...

2009-07-13T20:39:00.002+08:00

stop it esther,

don't step into it again please.

It's been awhile..

2009-07-12T14:05:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile that i write a word-y blog post. Just so you know, this won't be an emo-kinda-post. However, it's a post that has been put much thoughts into. Oh and, don't expect very good english here.

For the past few weeks, i was dry, empty, drained, confused and tired. Imagine yourself trapped in a very very very, and i mean very very very very very deep well where there's no water to drink, no food to give you energy yet you want to break out of this weird-well-with-no-water. Trying to break out, trying to use your long nails and hands to cling on to the mossy green brick walls, to get yourself out but fall after fall, you try again and again. Then you feel like giving up, giving up everything you had and everything that you wanted to fight for but in defence, you told yourself, I CANNOT GIVE UP COS' THAT'S GIVING IN TO THE DEVIL. Then you brush yourself up, still weak, you try again but you fall again, then you try again and you fell again, but this time HARDER on the ground.

You think, how can i get myself out of this?

You prayed and did everything you can, but still, there's no answer to how you can do this.

Then one day, you sit down on this blue office chair, hugging your legs while sitting on it, playing Avalon on your ipod, you start to think... you start to ask yourself.. ask God.. Why am i still in this so-call-mess or you can call it trouble.

Revelation came. Not in an instant, but a gradual one, bit by bit, it revealed.

Then you realised you've been fighting for the wrong things, you lost direction, you lost yourself, you are willing to lose yourself for something that had no guarantee, something that someone else might not cared for it the way you did, you lost your principles, values because you fought for something in a wrong way, you became dependent on the wrong person, you lost your independen-cy, you practically lost yourself for something that actually wasn't supposed to be fought this way.

Then you decided to start all over again, in the right way this time. Make wiser decisions. Falls are expected but giving-up will not be happening.

It was my transitioning period, now, it's the start of my 'new transition phase'.

Thank You God. Teach me. Guide me Lord. Amen.

t

2009-07-11T11:26:00.001+08:00

it's tempting to give up.

but i won't.

the-6-letter-S-word

2009-07-07T17:54:00.001+08:00

o(-.-)o

2009-07-05T15:40:00.001+08:00

TWO(:

2009-06-21T16:33:00.006+08:00

twenty-four

<3s

love always,

yingya

it.

2009-06-21T16:00:00.005+08:00

hello people!

i failed.

but God didn't fail me.
Thank God He was there,
and He placed people around me to comfort me and talk me around.

oh,
i meant, i failed my driving test.
not life k.

haha.

this phobia gotta go.
God, please blow it away.

:) :)

ONE LAST WEEK of school holidays.

THREE MORE DAYS in school.
TWO DAYS of meeting.
ONE DAY of church.
ONE DAY of rest + studying.
TOTAL: SEVEN DAYS OF MY LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAYS.

Nice.

I need motivation and encouragement.
seriously,

push push and go, esther.
God, push me.

Happy Father's Day to all!

POOF

2009-06-14T18:04:00.005+08:00

*POOF* is the word that i will use to describe my first week of holiday.

*POOF*
and it's gone.

For the last week, I had been busy with my FYP and projects.
And also, trying to study for my Mid-Semester Tests which is in 2 weeks from now.

It's more stuff and more stuff and MORE stuff to do for school.
Everyone's busy at school.
And we're all quite tired.

But I'm hanging on!

or at least,
i'm trying to hang on.

5 more days to TP Driving Test!
Please pray for me to be calm and skillful to take this test.
and also for me to pass it, on my, this, very first attempt.
Thanks, I appreciate it :)

I'll see you when i see you!

My Healer and Friend

2009-05-26T22:18:00.007+08:00

God did warn me that it wasn't going to be easy.

It's been getting tougher.

But I never said I would give up.

From the very beginning,

I said I want to do this regardless of anything.

And I'm still trying and hanging on,

because I want this.

But i need the strength to do this,

because I can't do this alone.

God is my Strength.

He can make all things right.

He heals.

He teaches.

He guides.

He directs.

He is my Friend.

He is my Father.

My Lord and Friend.

But whatever He had planned for me.

I accept and I need His strength.

i need to Balance Well

2009-05-22T11:10:00.007+08:00

photo credits to dalton ong

Thank God (:

2009-05-17T13:23:00.002+08:00

Thank God it's over. The audition was over. heh. I felt a little inferior after that. However, it was an experience to remember. Lesson leart was a reminder to be secured in Christ! heh. Nice.

I feel a little sick now. No worries. It's not the Swine Flu. I think it's because my wisdom tooth isn't coming out nicely, pushing the molar right beside it. I think my gums are inflammed then it led to my tonsils being inflammed or swollen as well. I feel extremely uncomfortable but the pain is bearable :D

It was a long and draining week but thank God it's the end of the week already. New week ahead to look forward to (:

Happy Birthdays to those this week!
Pristine, Joy and Jared!

Happy Birthday guys! :)

What's Happening Right Now

2009-05-14T18:28:00.003+08:00

So many things to do, i'm getting forgetful..

This is to remind myself:

1) Contact Lens Project
2) Environment and Community Optometry Project
3) FYP
4) Driving
5) SIFE Audition
6) Photography Assignment
7) Offering Sharing
8) Case Study Project

Scary.

God,

make me more Courageous please. Grant me Strength through all these.

Amen.

Holding on

2009-04-25T14:32:00.004+08:00

I had my first Clinic Duty of the semester yesterday. It wasn't that pleasant. I didn't do something wrong nor did i poke my patient's eyes. The problem was, I had no patients. Zero Patients. The 3 hours plus at Clinic passed really slooooooooowwwwwww-ly. With the thought, "How can i hit my quota if this continues? Will i ever get to graduate?" Haha. I know it's too early to worry. But i chose to submit to God. Because i know He had called me into this profession and He will make it happen. So praying hard, I will get more patients for all my remaining clinic duties.

Also,

I'm planning to seek help from people i know, which is YOU! heh.

If you want to help a friend like me, and get a FREE Eye Health Check, please let me know. I can arrange for an appointment for you to drop-by and get your eyes checked. Thanks! =D

2009-04-15T15:01:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone! I haven't been writing much other than posting pictures and more pictures :) Okay, I'm going to tell you a secret now. I just got the hang of using Facebook. Yes, i'm serious. To be honest, i'm really serious. And that's good. Hahaha. Seriously, again, I don't know what to write about and I am just going to be Random, as usual.

Anyway, I had 2 extra offs for my attachment last week and that makes a holiday of 1 week and 5 days! woohoo. Praise God. Yes, and i'm left with only 4days of it. Hahaha.

My eyes are itching. A relative amount of mucus was floating in my lower lid but now it's out. Shiok. Cos i rub it out. I'm sorry to those who hate to see people rubbing their eyes, especially Ju. I'm very sure my sister will smack my hand if she sees me rubbing them; And tong will also snatch my hands away from my itching eyes.

Well, i just decided to tell you about my day yesterday. So, here goes.

I thought yesterday was a pleasant and fruitful day. My day started at 9am then it kinda snoozed till 10am. So, to be exact, it started at 10am lah. Then, I started it by boiling some red potatos and eggs while i eat my cereal. Blah Blah and Blah... Potato salad was made. I prepared everything then out I go. Dropped by at Parco Bugis to get some Beard Pa Pa orginal puffs then head down to orchard mrt to meet the girls.

We then camped at the usual area that i like at Botanics. Laid the mat and food then we started munching like hungry people. Hmm.. Maybe, not We, I, started munching like a hungry person. Weather was pleasant. Thank God for asking my prayer. I prayed for a cloudy and a little sunny weather but i forgot about the wind. Yes, the air was quite still yesterday. It was a little warm. But, all is well, the company, food and nature was good.

I like to sit, or sometimes even, lie on the mat at the Botanic Gardens. It makes me feel close to nature, to God too. Somehow, everything seems to be alright, especially after breathing in the v. fresh air in the park and hearing the voices of the little crickets and birds. I strongly urge you to try it out when you're free! :D It's better than Sentosa. Really... Serious!

After a cool 4 hours with the girls, i head home with my little baggage of tupperware and mat, with some bacon left in the bottle.

After taking a shower, I took some time to wash and clear the things i brought out and used today. Then, i went on to do my QT.

Not long after, at 9pm ++, i changed and went out to United Square to look for my sister, tong and kenn to have some Udder's ice cream. Nice. I was feeling a bit hungry cos i skipped dinner so i went to cold storage to get 3 pieces of Apple Bake Ham at $3.73. Oh, i still remember how much it cost. Shiokness to the max but it was a bit too salty for a snack.

Waited for my sister to finish her work in her office then we head down to Udder's at 10:30pm. Shared Fresh Mango Sorbet and Strawberry fields with sis and Kenn had his-super-shiok-alcohol-ice-cream-that-makes-him-high. Then tong reached and also, he had his-super-shiok-mao-shan-wang-durian-ice-cream-that-gives-him-durian-breathe. Yum Yum.

Then three of us took a bus back while kenn walked home.

Cool. I feel like i'm writing a composition. Usually i don't like to give so much details when i write a blog entry. Hahaha. Hmm. oh well, anyway i've written it. Hope you enjoyed reading and also it didn't bore you.

Goodbye! :)

2009-04-06T21:08:00.007+08:00

yes, here i am.

pictures with little descriptions always say the most.

so,

here it is.

social with dna girls!

love you girls(: heh.

april fool's wk:

love you sweetheart, always! :D heh.

happy birthday T!

happy birthday dearest C!

one word to describe this trip:
AWESOME

2009-03-08T21:31:00.002+08:00

yet another great catching up in the week! heh.

some walk and chats around the mall.

some parklane wanton mee.

some watching of "veg cooking'' video.

some facebook-ing!

great day!

2009-03-03T21:39:00.004+08:00

Met her on friday last week :)

had a great time catching up
over pizza hut and rochor soyabean :)

over walks here and there too! :p

OITP has started for 2 days.

learnt Bahasa Indonesia and revised VA taking with LogMAR.
kinda tired! but i'm still in this! :D

Father, grant me strength. Amen.

2009-02-25T15:15:00.004+08:00

That's Over:

CNY

Crazy 2 weeks of tests

Jac's B'day

Girl's Night

Mal's B'day

EXAMS

Doctrines Class

Coming Up:

BATAM OITP

2009-01-04T15:46:00.002+08:00

Spent NYE at the Most Awesome Ready-2-Bounce, Chill, funnest NYE Slumber Party!

i tell you,

it's the most haps party ever!! :D

REDEMPTION HILL

2008-12-03T13:30:00.013+08:00

REDEMPTION HILL
An original production by FGA Singapore

REDEMPTION HILL
Full Gospel Assembly's 2008 Christmas Musical
Showing: 18, 19, 20 December 2008

Venue: 36, Prinsep Street, #03-01, Singapore 188648
Time: 7:30pm

All tickets are complimentary, however, only 220 seats per showing are available.

P.S: Interested parties, please let me know and i'll get tickets for YOU! (provided that they are still avaliable)

So, act fast! try to let me know by 14 dec 2008 (sunday).

And for those whom i've already invited and have RSVP, this is the introduction video on the Musical:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr9Lcd0M5W0

Donovan's VBlog Entry#3562.

2008-11-23T22:47:00.002+08:00

hello everyone,

i'm back.

i've been busy with school and there's many happenings in my life right now. And my Mid-Semester tests are coming!

that's all i can say now.

see you around!

"i know who i am" - Israel New Breed

2008-10-19T13:58:00.004+08:00

i'll be faithful.
i want to be a good servant, to God, to people.

the week didn't started too well BUT
it had a FANTASTIC end-ing.

thanks be to God.

2008-10-06T18:47:00.003+08:00

i was browsing some files in My Documents.
then i noticed this folder "STAY OVER".
and there were 3 videos in it!

Namely:
THE SOUP
THE START
VEG COOKING

i watched them all over again.

it's still absolutely hilarious to me till now.
totally speechless.

i guess only ying, yo, jing and me (in no particular order) will laugh when we watch it, because it is close and personal to the heart. heh. would love to have a stayover like that again if we can.

2008-09-24T11:58:00.004+08:00

well, my results were released one week ago.

i did pretty alright.

it was EXACTLY what i prayed for.

haha. be very careful with what you pray for.

i think that's the reason why we need to be SPECIFIC with our prayers.

thank God. it's truely God's grace and mercy for me to do well.

many many many things is going through my mind right now.

i need God's peace, patience, joy, knowledge and wisdom to deal with this.

please pray for me. thank you.

In Every Season, You are still God.

2008-09-11T15:01:00.002+08:00

"Nature Took Our Breath Away"

2008-08-31T13:36:00.002+08:00

Praise the Lord!

the exams are over.

i don't know how would i fare this time around.

but i really really want to commit everything unto God!

cos' i know i do my best, God will do the rest!

heh.

YOU ARE MY GOD AND KING!

God God God please please please,

reveal the answers to me please.

amen.

2008-08-08T20:13:00.003+08:00

late meet ups. good food. good chats.

late blog post.

great love(:

2008-07-20T14:59:00.002+08:00

God, teach me how to love people like You do.

God, teach me how to serve people like You do.

Amen.

2008-07-15T14:38:00.001+08:00

" i miss those days too man. aw!!! lieing on that parade square and podium filled with bugs and ants watching the night go by, with the twinkling and sparkling of the little little stars. let you guys call me crazy for lieing there. freezing cold nights at the fitness corner sleeping, with juniors sitting beside me, watching me drool through the morning. late nights pestering juniors to sleep sleep sleep. then give up after hours. waking up late for morning exercises. eat fatimah's super baik breakfast/lunch/dinner. ultimate. swee. chatting through the nights, get "laser-ed" in the parade square by a weird/pervert neighbour staying at the block right beside damai secondary. (and we've yet to find out who is that) play games with everyone, hike, exploring ubin, worrying for aini and yanxiu (not that it was v. nice), ride the bike around, go stinkey without bathe for *ahem* days. keep asking cheebeng to talk to the group. the systemic and automatic cheer. manys manys manys manxzxzxz. "

am grateful for these amazing experiences in damai.

thanks guys.

for making this coincidently choice into damai, a great one.

Bus Drivers

2008-07-10T19:00:00.003+08:00

Bus Drivers

This evening, i took bus 2 home.

I sat in the seat in the front,

with a perfect 30degree view of the busdriver from the back.

I realised,

actually,

Bus Drivers/Uncles/Aunties,

do have a huge responsibility,

AND,

it's not easy to be one.

Being the Captain of a huge vehicle,

having up to 55 people's lives in his very own hands.

Steering the humongous wheel,

for which kids like to mimic with a hula-hoop,

every turn is crucial.

Opening the doors and closing them at the right time,

making sure people can balance well to get a seat,

while they are driving.

Ensuring people gets to board and alight at the right stops.

maintaining that state of calmness,

while dealing with wreckless drivers on the roads.

And these wreckless drivers are people who,

rides on a bicycle by the road with the buses and cars that

stops right before the bus-stop suddenly to drop off.

They have to ensure every single one who boards the bus,

pays, and with the right amount and right card.

Why don't you try to observe a patient Bus Captain one day?

You'll then undertand fully what i'm conveying.

My *Salute* to Bus Captains.

2008-07-03T16:28:00.004+08:00

sometimes it's just so hard.

God, God,

please take full control over my life.

grant me the strength that i need.

amen.

2008-06-18T13:31:00.006+08:00

dad and mum couldn't make it to have lunch with K and E today.

so K decided to cook some WuLong Udon noodles for lunch.
then E also went to the kitchen to get some water to drink.

then, this conversation happens.

E: "Eh, this noodle quite spicy one leh"
K: i know, who ask you put so much (of the seasoning msg)
E: i just now put abit only la
K: You said "spicy", the noodles cannot hear you la
E: also not tell the noodle, is tell you what
K: the noodle "WuLong" ma, that's why cannot hear you
E. hahahh. ni hen lame leh!

2008-06-02T14:15:00.005+08:00

the past week's been overwhelming. my faith in God went up and down. and i realised! actually, He is so real to us laaaaa! heh. in His very own special way. it's indescribable, unless you experience it yourself. and for those you who do experience it with Him, i'm right, right ??!! heh. heard quite a few testimonies from people. the gold dust, gold teeth, white hair turn black, short legs turn long, miracles and miracles, so on and so on. Then, you will realise, it's right IN THE FACE that He is so,

powerful.

*****

coolio, it's close to ONE YEAR already.

whoo. it's been a whirlpool of emotioms.

but staying faithfully,

allow us to learn and realise so much things.

right sweetheart?

love you

heh.

*****

OH, and USUALSSSSsSSSSSSS!!!!!
can we meet soon?

i'm having my holidays.

after my holidays,

it'll be a test week and i would be busy again.

hoho.

love you guys.

*****

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME.
ALL THE TiME, GOD IS GOOD.

2008-05-11T19:02:00.006+08:00

my week is coming to an end in a few hours time. it was yet another busy and tiring week. BUT, God is good. because i had some conversations and got some help from Him. It was kinda an emotional and physically challenging week. Been up early everyday and didn't really manage to catch up with my sleep during the weekends. and thank You Lord for giving me strength through all these happenings in the week.

I pray God that You'll bless my coming week and You'll be working through it! and i know You will! heh. amen. Thank You Lord. I can't ask for more.

thanks dearie for your support and love! thanks for your understanding! appreciate you to bits :)) love you!

for those who were concerned, thank you. really appreciate your care :)

i know it feels weird and a part missing now. and i know i should have more faith in this! so God, please grant me more faith in this!! please! amen.

:)

2008-05-04T11:35:00.004+08:00

it's been rather a busy week though there was one public holiday in the week. hoho. basically it was school, shockwave, class lunch, OT class and lifegroup. heh. though it was really busy (busiest in the 3 weeks of school!), i thought it was rather a fruitful week. of course, today, being the last day of the week, i'm really really tired but yet, i'm happy, contented, gay, glad and whatever word to decribe positively can illustrate how i'm feeling now.

but! i'm still gonna do my work faithfully because i know that's one of purpose now. and i know God will provide! provide what ? provide the resources i need! cos that what He said when i had my prophecy. i want to live my prophecy out! woohoo. and i want to rely on God for the ultimate power and strength. :)

i'm thankful to God for everything i have now. :D

and i thank tong for being understanding and supportive all these while :D

woohooooooo... back to work. i mean school work.

laters.

2008-04-23T18:37:00.004+08:00

well,

school started for almost two weeks already.

time REALLY flies.

it's been rather alright.

modules' contents been a lil' overwhelming for me.

at this point of time,

i am still able to cope.

we'll see how it goes after a while then.

God, please guide me. thank You. Amen.

i don't know if it's me or what;

but i've been rather weak.

i get dizzy spells easily,

get tired even more easily,

and i lost weight.

it could be the weather too i guess.

anyway, i've been rather lost with what i'm doing.

really pray hard i will get back on track soon.

do pray for me too ya.

appreciate it millions.

God, please forgive me.

i will try harder.

give me the strength and selfdiscipline to do it.

i want to hunger for you.

please grant me more faith in You.

thank You. i love You.

Amen

to dalton:

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING LAAAAA!!!

can't thank you enough for standing by me all the time,

NEVER FAIL to somemore.

love you gazillions. hee.

The Start of the Semester is NEAR.

2008-04-08T12:02:00.005+08:00

school's starting in like 6 days!
woohoo.
quite excited for school to start.
i love to learn.

haha. but i dont like examinations.
i don't think many love them.

hee. school starts also means
"don't have to slack at home"

yol must be very happy for me now.
cos' she always call me slackerzxzx.

tong also don't have to take my nonsenses when im bored.
hee. less than 3 you lahhhh! :D

wooooohooooo!!!!!!!

2008-04-01T15:39:00.001+08:00

2008-03-28T12:10:00.005+08:00

a click on ''My Pictures'',
a click on ''F.R.I.E.N.D.S'',
a click on ''Photos'',
one last click on ''LONG LONG AGO''.

i found this!

miss those times man. haha.
this picture was taken in 2004 before netball training.
(if i'm not wrong)
and girls, still rmb
"yeyscv"?
hee.

2008-03-24T23:08:00.001+08:00

sometimes i feel like _____
but does it matter at all ?

no.

cos i know God is there for me.
and i know what's good or bad for me.

2008-03-02T20:50:00.004+08:00

hello.

you want to know a secret ?

i've been doing nothing for the past month.
not like nothing, but like ALMOST nothing.

haha. you can ask dalton or even my sister,
or even my brother or mother.

i've been watching tv everyday. haha.
seriously, i've never watch so much tv ever since poly started.

and i mean MUCH, LIKE ALOT ALOT.
quite cool la. cos i realised there are some nice shows to watch.

like cooking shows from 1130am to 1pm.
then 1pm got debbie travis facelift.
then 2 pm, i dont really like the show.
then i discovered there's this cartoon called PUCCA.
you know that's chocolate cracker or biscuit you eat.

HAHA. tong knows it all la. been telling him about PUCCA lately. haha.

other than tv,
i meet tong.
i help to clean the house.
i help my mum to cook soup once.
i help to buy lunch for family.
i changed my blog pic recently.
i updated my itunes programme which i should have done it long ago.
i wash my house fan.
i iron my clothes.
i played and discovered alot of games online.
i do quiet time.
i sleep alot. like really alot. and got ''scolded'' by my sister for sleeping too much
and dragging her into sleeping too much too. until we get headaches.
haha.
i got my results.
i helped out in archiving in church.
i serve a bit more in church.
faith claim her voucher from me.
i play netball.
i went rockclimbing.
i went for supper-s which i didnt have them for a long time.
i waited for my friends from tp to finish their exams.
wait and wait until now. haha
i went through some ups and downs.

BUT,

i should be working soon.
part time.

smile leh.
be happy for me.

otherwise i'll be slacking my holidays away.
SMILE :D
thanks.

ok.
think i cranky already.
good night.

i love you alot, dalton.

2008-02-28T19:43:00.000+08:00

270208

9am

Praise the Lord!

THANK YOU GOD.

2008-02-21T15:51:00.000+08:00

rarrr!!!

2008-02-02T12:47:00.000+08:00

WOOTS! :D

my papers are over.
will do well for some,
and some.. not!

heh.
but still,
it's ok!

GOD IS GOOD.
and He said,
"you do your best, i'll do the rest"

so
.
.
.
.

no worries :D

2007-12-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a busy 2 weeks. And there are things that i still haven't complete or do yet!

*********

I can say that this year had been the toughest year. Many challenges came and go. I went through quite a bit this year. Of course, i don't have any regrets or complains about them because i know all these happened for a reason. A good reason! definitely. They were all planned by God.

I think i've cried the most this year mansxzxzz. seriously, i don't why also. I'm not ashamed of telling people i do cry. yes. ya. maybe i won't really want to say that to my mum cos' they always call me cry baby and laugh at me. hmm. at least God don't laugh at me, but comfort me :D
I guess sometimes when i get hurt by people i love, the tendency of me being weaker and weaker is higher.

Of course, through all things, i will and have became strong. I'll keep praying for my heart not to harden too.

It's really been quite a tough year. There were issues. Not settled still. But i'm faithful that time will tell. Again, through all these, i'm not unhappy or what. But i always try to stay joyful and dalton always pray for joy in me too. thanks :)

Maybe because there were too many things that flood my life, until i didn't have time for myself at all. And i keep trying, and trying, and trying, and trying to make people happy until, i started to become impatient and became an angry person. like seriously, angry as in before i accepted christ kinda angry. hmm. if you know me a few years back, i'm like hot-tempered girl la. i can get angry at almost anything and swear and all. haha. sound like ahlian. but i'm not la. And i tried to study really hard, because i really want to do well, since for sem 1, my results were quite bad la.

And i'm still learning to have peace and be slow to anger and listen. Please forgive me for anything that i've done that offend you.

*********

Thank God, there were God, dalton, elaine and the girls from DNA and many many other people who loved me! :D They helped me along the way and all. THANK YOU! :D

Though certain things are still bothering me, i'll just keep praying and be faithful in my prayers. I'm still learning how to be that girl God wants me to be :D

thank you dearie for tolerating all my nonsense all these months :) thank you for your support all the time :) i less than 3 you! :D

2007-12-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

the holidays are here.
finally, the 'test' season is over.
the 2 weeks term break IS here.

time really flies,
like
-------ZOOM!
kind.

this is the time when i,

spend time with dalton,
catch up with my friends,
hang out with the girls at church,
catch up with myself,
and prepare for my exams.

all seemed cramped up.
but,
i shall plan my time wisely.

let's be faithful in Christ alone.

We are the reason,
that He gave His life.

God i pray for,
strength,
courage,
faith,
peace,
patience
and wisdom for this season.

Amen.

thank You, Father.
thank you for holding on, dalton :)
<3s

2007-11-20T20:44:00.001+08:00

Ask, and you shall recieve

2007-11-18T13:20:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord.

steadys..

THANK YOU LORD :D

2007-11-12T19:07:00.000+08:00

Ten things:

1. HELLO PEOPLE :D
2. i'm sorry.
3. please forgive me.
4. i'm trying hard.
5. please don't hate me.
6. lying is a sin and the wages of sin is death!
7. i haven't finish my pathology essay.
8. tests.
9. more tests!
10. FASHION BAG PARTY :D